It’s getting close to the one month mark of being in Costa Rica. We’re all getting a little more settled in, and things are getting less “new”. Lately, I’ve been asking myself, “Why am I in Costa Rica for these three and a half months?” Is it just to take classes and study hard and get better at Spanish? Is it to work in a health clinic in an internship (that still isn’t quite set up...)? Is it to live with and really get to know some Costa Rican families? Fortunately and unfortunately, I am someone who likes to be doing, going, doing constantly and productively. Here, some days are very full with lots of interesting and engaging classes and conversations, outings with my host family, and new experiences. And, as is the life, there are also days that move a little slower, like when I have some free time up at campus between class and dinner or when I’m just kind of hanging around the house with my host family watching TV or when I take a slow walk around town because it’s too early to go home. At these times especially, I wonder what is the purpose of my time here. I mean I could study, watch TV, or hang out anywhere. So, my thoughts dwell on what should my time in Costa Rica look like and why I'm here in the first place. (Just a side note…When I’m actually writing all of these thoughts down, I think, “Girl, just calm down! Don’t try to analyze every little bit of life. It’s ok if you don’t feel 100% ‘productive’ in everything you do!” That’s why I love writing things down because you can process through them and realize sometimes how ridiculous it all sounds :) )
So, there’s the background…One day last week, I came outside to sit on a bench by one of the lakes on campus during a little break between classes. I started reflecting/praying about what's been on my mind, particularly the question “Why am I in Costa Rica this semester?” Then, Mordecai’s words of courage to Esther came to mind, and I found my answer. Why am I in Costa Rica? for such a time as this (Esther 4:14) For such a time of sitting outside and being still before God on the beautiful Whitworth campus here in Costa Rica. For such a time as learning the power of presence as I sit with my family. For such a time as meeting new people and experiencing new places as I walk around town because I missed the bus. For such a time as reflecting on past experiences like Peru and processing through those a little more. For such a time as sitting with my host mom after dinner to talk (mostly her talking :) ) for an hour. For such a time as being in a new place, learning the phrases, getting to know the culture. I could on and on. Wow, what truth! The phrase “for such a times as this” has been such an inspiration to me this past week, so I wanted to share that here. Rather than gaze into my unknown future, I can live each moment in joyful awareness of God’s presence.